Here is our Christmas card. It was a last-minute idea. I felt a surge of desire to have Luke seen and remembered, so I decided to put him on our card. I wanted to be sending a collage card this year with pictures of our new, cute baby and thought “Who says I can’t still do that?” I wasn’t going to do cards and only found the energy (only enough energy for an e-card, mind you) when I realized it could be an opportunity to share Luke. I emailed it to friends and relatives, including some who didn’t want to see his pictures when they were offered. To those who had refused his pictures, I felt like “Take that! You’re going to see him anyways!” ( I actually envisioned a little victorious 1,2 air punch as these words ran through my mind.) I also posted it on Facebook, which is the first time I have shared any picture of him other than his foot there, although I had contemplated doing so for a long time. It felt good, although also just a little scary. Thank you to you friends who told me how you have shared your babies’ pictures in a public way–your stories gave me courage.
Some people may be offended or think I’m morbid, but oh well. He is part of our family and part of our Christmas and I think his picture is beautiful. I feel like the pictures help prove that he is real. I think they show that he was a fully-formed baby like any other baby. I want people to know that. Every lost baby picture I have seen is beautiful, no matter the circumstances. Our babies are real humans that deserve to be seen and celebrated. If anyone wants to share your baby’s pictures with me, I would love to see them.
So far, I have only gotten nice emails and loving comments on a beautiful card/family and his “perfect little face”:) It warms my heart for him to be a part of our Christmas in a public way. Merry Christmas my Luke! Merry Christmas dear friends!