Life Keeps Moving and I Keep Missing You

I went to a baby shower this past weekend.  I thought of you a lot during it and also got to talk about you to the mom being showered, who is a new friend and didn’t know about you yet.  The doctor who is to deliver her baby is the same one who ended up delivering you, my Luke.  She didn’t seem concerned by this fact, just empathetic that we are without you.  It is nice that I now can go to a baby shower without it being a heartbreaking experience.  I am thankful that you got to be showered and doted on.  There’s another baby shower to attend this coming weekend, this time for a baby boy, which might be a little harder.

I took your little brother to the park today.  It was finally warm enough to get outside for a bit, with some layers on.  I hope you are getting to play in the sunshine all you want and I bet you don’t need any layers on to do so.  You are flooded by God’s love, in person, which I know feels more amazing than I can imagine.  I love you, my sweet son.  I am thankful for chances to talk about you.  I can’t believe it will be your 4th birthday in a few months.  Time flies by.  Your brother is getting big too fast.  But each day that passes is one closer to getting to be greeted by you in heaven, my sweet son.  I can’t wait to see your beautiful, smiling face.  Your dad’s grandmother, your great grandmother, is on her deathbed.  I hope that she has accepted Jesus as her Savior so that she gets to go to heaven and meet you.  I am so thankful that I know I will.  If anyone reading this does not have that relationship with God, you need it.  He loves you so much! He sent His Son Jesus to die for your sins so that you can be reunited with Him in heaven.  All you have to do is accept His great gift.  There is no better help to get through this earthly life which can sometimes be so hard.  Please let me know if I can pray for you.