I want to buy a baby

Sam is now 3 years and 3 months and has been saying all sorts of funny and interesting things. I love it. This is one of the parts I looked forward to the most, the kid-isms that make you laugh.

The other night, I had a quick conversation with him about God always being with us. I told him that Jesus lives in my heart and He helps me to be a better person. A day or two later, I heard him telling Josh, “Mommy has God in her heart and he helps her get better!” I was amazed and delighted. My smart little boy 😊

Tonight as I was tucking him in, he said, “I want to buy a baby. I want to buy it a little bed and have it sleep in my room.” I’ve been wondering when he might ask about siblings and trying to plan the best responses. How to best explain that he has a brother; his brother is just in heaven. We will see him and be with him again. I have told him about Luke many times of course, but I don’t think he fully understands brothers and sisters just yet. I’m excited to have opportunities to talk to him about Luke, but also anxious about the details. Tonight, when he asked about a baby, I found myself tearing up. I couldn’t reply for a few seconds. How I sometimes wish that his brother was here, playing with him.

Lord, please give me strength and wisdom in making Luke a present part of our family in a way that his little brother can understand and enjoy.


2 thoughts on “I want to buy a baby

  1. That is so hard. I have been surprised at how hard it is for me to talk about Lucy to Nora. The boys know all about Lucy and we talk about her freely. She’s always been a part of the family for them. But with Nora it’s different. It’s sad in a way to have to tell her all about a sister of hers that she won’t know until heaven. I have to tell her all about what she’s missing out on and that breaks my heart. But I also want her to know that she does have a sister and her sister is an important part of our family. I always feel like you have done a good job of explaining Luke to Samuel since he was a baby.

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