30 weeks   I had Luke when I was 36 years old, a month before my 37th birthday.  I had Samuel when I had just turned 38.  We live in northern Arizona.  My husband Josh and I have been married since  10/10/10 and were very excited to be having our first child due 5/20/13, a boy named Luke Hudson.  Luke means “bringer of light” so he is my little sunshine.  At our 39-week appointment, we found out Luke no longer had a heartbeat and the world crashed.  He was stillborn on 5/14/13. He was beautiful and perfect and very loved.  They were not able to find any cause for his death.  We were heartbroken and learned how to get through the tragedy as we went. We relied on a lot of help from God, each other, family and friends, and others who have experienced the loss of a child.


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  1. I too have been through your story and am trudging through. 5-19 was when my little Jacob was born sleeping, I’m trying to make it through each day, but each hour seems difficult. I will pray for you as well, as praying helps to comfort me.

  2. So sorry to see you join the club.
    Doria was 36 weeks when we found out, and I know that I was taking her health and life for granted, just because this doesn’t happen. But we’re here, and it does.
    So sorry about your heartbreak. I know Luke and Doria are having a great time, but that won’t make it easier here.
    Praying for you guys. Anything my wife and I can ever do, fire away. We’ll do anything we can,

  3. Hello. I found your blog through a search for “stillbirth” and I am at a loss for words regarding the similarities between our stories. My husband and I lost our son Maddox, and we also found out on the day of our 39 week appointment. You have shared many of the same songs that have spoken to my heart even recently, though Maddox was stillborn on December 13, 2011. I have just started this blog, but I have another where I have written about our grief journey. Should you care to read it, the address is http://mommytomaddox.blogspot.com/. I am terribly sorry for your loss, and I will remember your family in my prayers. ❤

  4. I lost my baby girl at 39 weeks at well, during delivery, success born unresponsive, and was on 100% oxygen until she die the next day. I felt all that you did, I will hit my 6 months mark next month, I still cannot believe my baby is gone, I know she is in heaven, and I know I will see her again….but, there are so many things I wish I had done differently, I wish I had hold her longer, taken a l ot if pictures, be with her every minute, I wish I had her right now

    • Paula, I’m so sorry to hear of your loss of your daughter. It’s so heartbreaking. I have found it very helpful to know I’m not alone, so thank you for sharing your story. I am almost at 8 months out and it seems to be getting a little easier. Our babies are safe in heaven and we can have eternity with them there. Hang onto that.

  5. I came across your blog as I was trawling the net today.I am So sorry for your loss of baby Luke, and terribly envious that you are having a rainbow. Today marks two months since I discovered that my angel daughter Sinza had no heartbeat. I am a single mom, she is my only child..I am still lost. As if being pressured to have an abortion, then being abandoned by her Dad and having to brave the entire pregnancy alone was not tough enough…wonder what else God has in store for me??

  6. Hi Sarah,
    I have been following your story since my little girl entered Heaven 11 months ago. Your blogs have given me strength in The Lord. I am sorry for your lost here on earth. I know Luke watches over you daily. Congrats on your next bundle of Joy. I will continue to pray for you. To help my healing process and the process for others I started a foundation in my baby’s name. To help spread awareness I am holding a 5k on Aug 9th in my hometown. I remember you stating in a few of your blogs that you were not able to have a memorial for Luke. During the closing ceremony all the babies that are in Heaven due to stillbirth will be acknowledge in a special way. I was wondering if you mind if Luke’s name is added. I would for his life to be acknowledged because his life still lives on. I hope all is well and I will continue to pray for you. God bless!

    • Hi Latifa,
      Thank you so much. I would love for Luke’s name to be included in your event! How nice. Thanks for the prayers and I will pray for you also.

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